Court tomorrow for my protective order and I’m nervous

23F and my ex is 21M

We dated for about 3-4 months and broke up in March 2025; so about a year ago. It was my first sexual relationship since I go through periods of being sex repulsed. During the relationship he was really controlling and SA’ed/raped? me multiple times despite us having multiple conversations over to not do it or telling him to stop, but that’s not what I’m going after him for because I don’t have any proof besides vague texts.

Basically I finally decided to attempt not being friends anymore in late March and explained why, mentioning how we always argue and the SA. He blew up at me. Said he was going to khs and creating 10+ phone numbers over the past few months to spam text me, and even contacting my mother and making fb posts about how much he misses me and that he has nothing left without me. He’d say goodbye and referenced he was going to khs several times, and the first 2-3 times I called in welfare checks which all I’m pretty sure the cops never did them, but I know his reddit and he’d just be posting in random video game subreddits all day so I knew he wasn’t dead. And he’d text me back the next day or few days later just repeating the process. And a few times threatened to show up to my place, I live an hour away.

June 13th he made another number and texted that he was going to buy a gun and show up to my place. And that he planned to see me one last time before going to the beach by me to ‘blow his brains out’. Cops by me took it serious and gave me an emergency PO, cops by him didn’t care and said it was a stunt on his end since he has a history of this apparently and a current RO against him by an ex coworker.

My mom is going with me tomorrow. Scared about her finding out about the SA. She’s already had to deal with so much, I don’t want her to know about it because I know it’ll hurt her too and it’s just embarrassing for me.

Just need words of encouragement or experiences with the court process. I had 125+ papers of text messages I feel both over and under prepared.