Back in April 18th of this year, I wrote a lyrically inspired poem called Three Flashes of April. This is about the past three Aprils I've experienced(2023-2025), coincidentally the date April 18th. I use and reference a lot of Mariah Carey Songs and lyrics in it. It is published already, so beware of trying to copyright! Hope you can enjoy and resonate with it, and ofc find the golden nuggets of her music imbedded in this poem!

Three Flashes of April

I created a Music Box to get me through a tough time in April 2023

And learned that Anytime I Needed a Friend, 

God was with me.

But I wanted real friends

And I even began to imagine

A Dream Lover coming to rescue me.

But, hadn’t found one until I entered the Fantasy

Oh, I was deep in my daydreams

And April 2024 was a prolific year for me

I embraced it with Open Arms 

And began to Melt Away at the idea 

Of love

And meaningful connections.

While Looking In, I said to myself that "I Am Free"--

But quickly these relationships had to be severed,

They couldn’t last Forever,

And I had to flee from Underneath the Stars with you.

I had to finally leave the Fantasy

That’s what the end of 2024 was for me.

I was finally entering my Butterfly phase in April 2025

No I didn’t have my taste of Honey

And sugar never was so sweet

But I learned to spread my wings and fly,

Fly abandonedly into the sun

Fly from institutions

Fly from beliefs that no longer served me

Fly from people that didn’t deserve me

Fly,-- but I felt my wings clipped

By the trauma that I was still facing

I tried to avoid mental Breakdowns and stay strong,

Although I was being done so wrong.

And this is where I am currently

So I Close My Eyes 

And steady my feet on the ground

Raise my head to the sky

And try to imagine finding that end of the Rainbow.

I bend down and grab flower Petals 

And let them fly away in the Blissful wind

Embracing my Vulnerability

And reminiscing

On all of the love and relationships that 

I let go of….

After reading this line, I hope you don’t take "her"

For a Heartbreaker

Because "she" was Against All Odds 

In trying to save herself from the mirage.

Anyways, my hope still remains for the future

And no, they Can’t Take that Away from me.

I’m waiting to meet y’all on the other side

My new friends, family and lover, 

Even just to see the end of the Rainbow.

I await the day that 

I can finally say, 

“Thank God I Found You!”