She broke up with me yesterday!!!!!!!!!

I don't know anything anymore.

We had been together for the last 5 years in a long-distance relationship. We had too many fights, but we never left each other because we loved each other so much.

Recently, I came home after my semester ended, and yesterday she told me that she wants to focus on her studies and doesn't need me anymore and brokeup with me.

I am not able to process any of this. I don't even have anything to say. I loved her so much.

Relationship Context:

• 5-year long-distance relationship she was my crush i always imagined to be with her since 6th class and got in relationship after 12th
• She had a boyfriend before, but she lied about it at first and told me later. Even then, I still loved her.
• She had many male friends, and in her eyes, I was always an insecure guy who wanted to take away her freedom.

I just found this channel.

I hope things got better for her. Life is unexpected. She was a girl who couldn't even live without me, couldn't sleep if I wasn't on a call or video call with her.

Realization:

Life is unexpected. She was a girl who once couldn't sleep without talking to me, and now she's gone.

Maybe I wasn't good enough. Maybe I overreacted. Maybe I was insecure.

It feels strange how we spend our lives chasing ambitions and trying to achieve great things, yet sometimes we cannot protect the one thing we already had.

And somehow, losing that hurts more than failing at any dream.

:) YES it is edited with chatgpt i can not wrote things with corrct spelling