[27F4M] most consensual sexual experiences I’ve had have been unconventional… I think that’s caused my type to be guys who can’t have sex

I love someone who is pursuing their goals and excited to give and receive in a really equal partnership. I have my first art exhibit where I’m going to have permanent public art installed in a park for a year coming up, I also just graduated with my first of hopefully a couple degrees And I work full-time remote in social services so I’m seeing what’s happening to peoples benefits and peoples lives on the front line.

Share entertainment I’m currently watching deli boys with my mom and it’s hilarious. I also love chainsaw man, Apothecary diaries, psycho, pass, Atlanta, insecure and mow. Tastes are kind of all over the place, but can never go wrong with an actual good piece of adult animation. I love books and I’m a poet, but currently reading an essay collection by Ross Gay cause I can pick it up when I’m not busy.

Now for what I want in a kind of? Sexual relationship… I do have a fat ass and a slim figure so a lot of the guys who are into penetration penis and vagina sex sex that looks like what everyone thinks of expect a lot of freakiness out of me? They want it constantly sometimes only see me sexually and it’s always stuff that’s too much for me personally, like I don’t like polyamory or nothing like that but because I’m queer, they’ll always want to fantasize about threesomes and other people with me. They also almost always end up doing some thing I didn’t want or told them I don’t like.

But like you know, I hump everything pillows, my bed plushy‘s whether I’m actually doing it to come or it’s just a stim and it helps me stress out less because I get the comfort from rocking and the comfort of pressure on my clitoris. Anyway, yeah, grew up with a lot of sexual assault, and the only things that were consensual with me humping anything I could , being with cute girls, and being with boys who had to be creative about how we have sex.

My first sneaky link for like long-term we were doing this for like three years was this guy I met when I was first going blind and living in the group home and he was very much obese, but I fucked with that. We were the only ones there around the same age and got close And he said he didn’t like regular sex because it was too much work but he would let me touch and play with his belly hump anywhere I wanted and just like touch my breasts and play with my body and help me pick out panties and stuff cause he loves lingerie. He’s the one who helped me figure out that even though I don’t like the texture of wetness and I don’t like penetration that much, I do love getting fingered with latex gloves, and it feels really really good.

The next guy who everything was consensual with was really really into porn and was also queer and mostly liked girls, titties and bodies, but didn’t really like vagina like that. I would just grind in his lap and we would scroll through core and gifts on Reddit with the sound on . Sometimes he would just play with my feet and stroke all the way up my legs to my butt and tell me how pretty I was I don’t think I ever fully took off my clothes when we were together in fact, that turned me on so much more.

And then, my best friend when we were dating, he has issues with Moses and his foreskin so sex without a condom is painful for him, but we were dry hump a lot. He loved playing with my ass and kissing me and tickling me stroking my hair and treating me like his little baby I love when he used to pinch my cheeks a lot,(yes, both face and ass) and then be stroking himself with the other hand, or when he would tell me to give him kiss while he did it.

I wish there were some type of community where I could find this because I keep kissing frogs who want normalcy from me and I just need my prince who maybe wants penetration if he will do all the work when we want to have kids or when I’m really really really really high sometimes