Nakutaka wewe

Nimekuja with my boring topics to this sub, sorry in advance.

Is it only me but why do we all tend to look for a relationship or get pulled by the idea of one when we are struggling with something?

It's like I don't want to deal with this situation no more and I'm just hungry or looking for an escape - I'mdefinitely desperate for one.

Aaaaah! Sex! What an escape? The ultimate escaoe if I may say, but afterwards the guilt that hits is serious (that's specifically if you are consciousness) but if you are not then you are safe.

Such and such leads to unwanted things, now she's pregnant, damn! the cd unrolled itself in that moment of sweet release (you definitely know the one), in that moment when all my troubles were forgotten - I was flying.

Dumb was she and I when I accepted for her to just put it back in, I knew the consequences but damn, resisting felt impossible at the time.

I definitely should have worked on myself before spreading my disease (not HIv or anything sexual), I mean I should have dealt with the negatives in my life because now I'm looking at her and in my head all I'm thinking is that I'm not ready for this.

She's great though, she's trying though and so I'm I but I wish I never did it - in a different time maybe.