Vent/Lost

I don’t expect most people to read this but it’s just something i’ve wanted to write out to seek clarity

Last year I tried 7oh and after a few times was dosing on average probably 22.5mg followed by 7.5mg redose (at night say at 7 pm and redose at 10-11pm) after a few days of trying it i was dosing more like 3x daily splitting the 30mg 7tabz through the day. I’d take maybe a day or two off after 5 days but was doing this for 2-3 weeks before stopping entirely for about 6 months.

Fast forward I’d been taking a small amount of alpraz every night and wanted to quit so to ease the first couple days i figured i’d try 7oh again, this time strangely even a full 30mg 7tabz at once didn’t do much for me so I went and got a 80mg 7stax and took 1/2 of that on top of it and felt good. Slowly things escalated taking it more often like a few days out of the week and at higher dosages until an 80mg 7stax (split as 60mg at 8 then 20mg dosed a couple hours later) became typical for a couple weeks and then i stopped for a week.

Following a minor surgery soon after I got given hydros which did nothing for me so I picked up more 7oh which helped and in no time things spiraled into taking it 5/7 days of the week at an avg of 150-200mg split into two doses both close together at night (and my days off i’d take a bar of alpraz + pregab or something to help ease the nighttime dread)

Now a few days ago I was down to my final 5 limitless 100s and decided to make a tapering plan (despite the effectiveness of tapering being iffy bc of the half life of 7oh according to many) which went 175mg, 150mg, 75mg, 50mg, 50mg or so (also only dosed once nightly instead of doing redosing). I got to day 3 and decided to combine one of the 50s w the 75 to go to 125mg and now i’m down to my final 50mg piece. Feel incredibly uneasy about tonight and i’m debating whether it’s worth even taking it because it’s likely not going to give me my desired effects while still prolonging the time it’s been since quitting. I’m able to go 24 hours between doses feeling uneasiness and chills/sweats but nothing too intense yet.