I won’t ever heal

I can’t believe in 1.5 years I’ve only have gotten worse. I blame all the medications I have taken. This is so sad I don’t even know how much more I can handle this. I still have burning sensations in my legs, and feet 24/7. I still see visual static 24/7 and I developed a ton of floaters during this time and blindness I still deal with inner buzzing and vibration, severe muscle stiffness, Electric shocks in my body, chronic fatigue, muscle aches all over, neuropathic pain. I still have reactions to meds, herbs, and vitamins too. It’s only gotten worse as months go by and I’ve been only sleeping lately 2 hours a night. Before I was getting 4-5 hrs.. I’m so sick of hearing we all heal when I haven’t gotten one break from any of these symptoms.