What do I do?

My Q has cirrhosis, recently had a hospital stay where he was bleeding internally, and needed transfusions and surgery. He has not stopped drinking, that was February. He tried AA a couple of times, and I admit to not being supportive because he has verbally abused me to the point of no return.

Unfortunately, I have been a stay at home Mom the last 6 years. I have no income. He hasn’t worked since last year. I can’t leave the kids with him to work. We have investments that we’ve been living off of and we own our home.

My problem is we have no real support system. I have family out of state, and a cousin about 30 miles away. He has a best friend that lives nearby, but has 5 kids and is always working. My husband is on all sorts of waitlists for rehabs, waiting and calling everyday. He hasn’t eaten solid food in over a week. Surviving on protein shakes and broth. He went to the ER and they said he was bad, but stable enough to go home. I think it’s a lot to do with depression keeping him on the couch. He hasn’t showered in probably 2 weeks.

I am going to divorce him eventually, but we are so tied up financially together, I can’t right now. I’ve been attending alanon meetings. I’ve been taking good care of myself, eating well and exercising while dealing with all this. Our youngest has no idea what’s going on.

I can’t leave, I can’t afford too, and this is my home. He will likely die, if I do. He has given up on everything. I need some support, advice, prayers, anything to get me through this horrible time.