I feel like I don't have anyone I can turn to and it's because I don't want to

lately I've been feeling like I don't like my life anymore, and I've been dreaming of a different one where I'm happier and look and act different. I feel like I'm a bad person, a failure and that every problem is my fault

I'm tired of living but I feel like I'm exaggerating because I don't feel like I have "real problems" and my life is definitely not bad compared to other people

I don't like telling the people I know about my problems because I suddenly feel like they're dumb or I'm being ridiculous, and even if I really wish I could just let everything out, I don't want to worry anyone

if I tell my parents, I don't think they'll listen, they would surely scold me. I can't tell my friends because I will feel awkward and guilty and I don't really want to to through a conversation that's only about me. Also, I don't want to tell my boyfriend because I feel like I'm a burden and I don't want to annoy him even if I know he would never feel like that and that he supports me no matter what

I wish I could have the confidence to tell someone how I feel, but it's really hard, I don't like feeling like I'm stealing the spotlight or anything