My dad's crazy

My dad hits me like a lot. I don't remember a time when some part of me didn't hurt when I moved. My mom died giving birth to me, so I guess that's my fault in his eyes

I get yelled at constantly it's a like bee buzzing in my ear until that bee gets drunk and starts hitting me

Nothing I do is ever good enough for him I'm the top of my class, and I've got into a science program that only picks 30 students from the whole country, and when I told him he said he didn't feel like driving me for 40 minutes every Sunday

It's my birthday today. I turn 14, and he's been out of the house for all of the day, the only present I ever got from my past birthdays is him reminding me that him and my mom were never spoused to even have me

Sometimes, I think if I just killed myself, it would be a lot easier than living like this