sometimes i wonder if i should bother anymore

with test results im just told to basically supplement for iron and im borderline anemic. i guess it could always be worse but i never went through fatigue in my life like this. it is hard to tell if it could be more or you just need to keep treating the low iron and such. i wonder how much longer i should wait. i really am hardly up to anything and people think im depressed.

i have had trauma in my life but i was able to get to a place to return and even finish my degree. im generally able to resolve some stuff. but this? i have been unwell since having pneumonia for nearly two months in 2024. it was really life changing for me. fatigue, shortness of breath and some repeated more mild infections. shingles three times. i have had enlarged lymph nodes but i have a lymph node that came one month after i had a breast biopsy and i was not even sick. it never went down. its just weird.

it has been suggested that it could be just inflammation because of high haptoglobin and positive ANA, with no other tests pointing that much to anything. but its still something. im tired of being told im just lazy and it does feel like a relief to prove im not. i guess it could be so simple to treat myself and try to look into anti inflammatory foods and the AIP diet.