The Infertile Road

Dedicated to the one I lost and the continuing navigation on an infertile road.

SCREAM and SHOUT and FIGHT and BITE
Shreds of my soul bubbling to light
Tarnished and tainted
Hurt and marred
Under my skin are scars and more scars
I've failed, I'm not taking the F
Retake the exam, grasping what's left
I'm NOT done
I'm here
withering away
How dare you take her, it was never my say

continuate to infuriate
[as if I'm not talking directly to God]

Over-heated, resounding out
Did you see me sputter? See me pout?
Rise, I'm inclined, to show you what's best
A will of my own - does that make you upset?
What destiny? It's questioning fate
I doubt you can compensate
for the prophecy lost to me telling me 'no'
I'm believing I'm achieving in this story I own
Did you think I'd step out?
Realize it's dead?
You don't fucking know what's inside of my head
My heart, or my gut, or MY FUCKING OVARIES
She's coming to me

She's coming to me