Lost one of the family dogs today

I live with my elderly mother as her sole caregiver, which has not been easy due to she is a real trigger for my CPTSD. This morning, she made the decision to put her dog down and I took charge of the whole thing. It was time.

I feel very sad. Loss is not easy as I am confronting my own physical illness challenges and my mother's aging, while still working part time and trying to finish up my service dog's training curriculum.

I recently decided to cut off contact with an abusive step-mother and barely speak to my father anymore, after they yelled at and hung up on my mother when she wanted to talk to them about my well-being after they are gone, so the loss of the dog triggered this feeling of an ever dwindling family.

On top of it, someone on this board called me a "nasty and broken person" for having a strong opinion about someone on Youtube, who I don't think much of - and consuming her content was worse for me over time.

I think the stress of everything with my family, my mother's aging, and having to put the dog down has put me in a bad dissociative state today. My hands almost feel numb. I realize my mother is heading into dementia a bit as well, but I am trying to realize that I am still here and nothing terrible has happened other than life, death, and loss. I just struggle with sudden changes and stressful happenings more than ever lately.