Ranting

It was my first drop and second attempt at neet and honestly not scoring good, my dad told me to go abroad and I said yes cuz I believe that I will atleast qualify and my parents even started my passport process but after checking answer keys because of silly mistakes in chem and physics i think I will barely qualify and also did research about mbbs abroad and found that it will take atleast 9 to 10 years just to sit for neet pg and i honestly don't think it's worth it I'm already 20.

I explained to my mom about doing bpharma and preparing for neet next year but she won't listen saying it's my fault I didnt study,ik I'm at fault but I was also never interested in this.

My parents are dead set on sending me abroad and I don't have guts to tell them about i won't qualify so I thought of making excuses about how long it will take in abroad and I'm honestly scared to tell them this idk what to do at this point sometimes I wish I can just end it all.