Any possible reason for my inability to [[subredditName]]?

Might there be possible reasons for my ability to drow disciplined?

Like, no matter what i try, nothing seems to work, no matter how much time i give it. Even if it's tiny goals, i forget or ignore it. Assuming i even try ofc, because sometimes i just don't, even when i wanna, and idk why.

I just seem 100% resistant to discipline entirely, as though i were immune to it in the worst way possible. And me no likey, cus it make me feel bad and annoyed.

Like, genuinely, i hate how i cant do anything without sheer luck for a good mood (rare) or someone making me do it. Ive been trying for s few years now, and nothing goes anywhere, all just a big circle over and over and over.

Like, let's say i wanted to start on something small: instead of sleeping at 6, do so at 5:45. Yes, AM.

Not a shot, did it once and never again, always kept sleeping way too late goddammit. And i hate it. I hate that i keep doing this so much, i hate it so much.

Also lazy, so yeah, there's that. Anything for that doc?

Idk, padding this out for the rules really.

I also have 0 motivation. No real will to live, just coasting through life. I hope you can imagine how horrible it must be, since i'm the type to believe living without purpose, because you have to and not because you want to, is worse than not living at all. So there's that.

Im also not normal. Not self-diagnosing and no diagnoses, but i can tell easily that im abnormal in the mind. So yeah.

Thx gng.