Help type me

I haven’t really considered my MBTI type in a long time, since I dropped MBTI for other systems, but I want to see what others think. I’m not sure what MBTI type I am.

• How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.

I’m 18 years old and I am a cis woman. I’ve been told that I am meticulous, thoughtful, selfless, caring, and a responsible person. I’m not sure what else I should say, but the main reason I’m doing the questionnaire is that I need help typing myself because I don’t have enough self awareness to do it lol. Well, I don’t think I do.

• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?

I don’t have any diagnoses, but I have struggled with anxiety for a lot of my life. Though, my parents refused to get me any help with that. I think that’s it.

• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?

A lot of my family members are religious, however, my inner family wasn’t growing up. I had to go to church with my grandparents, but that’s it. I didn’t like church and never really ever felt religious or “close to God.” I think, as a rebellion, my father became an atheist because he resents his parents. He watched a lot of documentaries and stuff about debunking Christianity, and I watched it with him. So naturally, that’s how I grew up. My mother was more quietly religious and used it while she struggled silently a couple years ago when I was little, my father was very distant and rarely ever helped her. Nowadays, I identify as agnostic, my parents are religious now though, and I find it stupid because they’re only doing it because of their political beliefs and what their side does. Me personally, I don’t like abrahamic religion at all, so I’m wary of talking about religion with them.

• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?

Currently I work in retail because I enjoy talking to people and being around them. I like it, but my actual plans for a career are training to become a pet groomer.

• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?

I’d feel refreshed the first day, but then I’d start to get lonely. Typically, the only time I need to recharge is a night’s sleep or a couple hours to myself playing games or reading. Most weekends I spend with friends or family. Sometimes I work on the weekend but in my free time, it’s spent with friends or family.

• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?

I like a variety of activities, typically I’m willing to try anything, but my preference is mostly activities that stimulate my mind or make me feel excited. Something I like now after trying it recently are rollercoasters after being terrified of them. I like sports, and I’m good at basketball, I loved it when I was younger. I also enjoy swimming and taking hikes. I used to go hiking and camping a lot when I lived in an area with more mountains and rural areas.

• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?

I would say I’m a fairly curious person, though I don’t strive to know every single thing. I mainly study or gather information I’m interested in or makes me feel more secure. For example, if I’m going to a specific place, I’ll study everything there is to know about it. Or, if I’m worried about something, I’ll look up experiences of it online and get more information so it reassures me more. I have a lot of ideas, some that confuse me and make my brain feel dizzy. Sometimes I wonder what would I be if there was no Earth, Milky Way, the universe, etc? What is there except life? Why am I here? What purpose do I serve in the grand scheme of things, and why do I have to make money to enjoy my life? Other ideas I get are simply ideas for stories, or sometimes my brain wanders and I imagine myself on a stage singing a song, wondering what the crowd’s reaction may be.

• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?

It depends on the leadership position. I think I can be good at pretty much anything if I have enough practice, and if I feel confident in my abilities to be a leader in that position. What matters to me also is everyone approving of my standing as a leader. I don’t want people to disapprove of me being there because it would feel like I’m doing something wrong, and everyone’s opinion matters to me. My leadership style would probably be someone who listens to everyone’s opinions and puts every thought into consideration. I would hate to feel like I’m a bad leader.

• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?

At times I’m coordinated, I’m quite clumsy when I’m around people I’m comfortable with. However, when I’m in public on my own, it feels like someone could be watching me at any moment, so I’m sort of stiff and careful with my movements. I enjoy working with my hands very much, since that is what makes me feel most capable. For example, when someone asks me to carry something for them and they regard that I’m doing well or that I’m strong, I feel great. My hands are quite skillful, when I’m good at something and have been doing something for a long time, they just naturally know what to do. I’ve been using a keyboard for so long that I could type with my eyes closed, though I suppose that’s the case for a lot of people my age.

• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.

I would say yes, I’m just not blessed with drawing capabilities. I’m great at writing stories and I’ve been doing it ever since I was little, I also practiced it because I’ve been doing roleplays and playing roleplay games for a long time. I think that putting myself in a role is fun, and I’ve been told I can perfectly mimic certain characters when I roleplay with friends. Otherwise, I enjoy writing and I’ve been complimented on it by teachers, classmates, friends. I can write in an abstract manner or with a direct approach. However, I don’t like “traditionally” reading much, as in reading books. I can’t ever seem to focus on the words on the page, but I love to write so much! I’m trying to push myself to read more books nowadays. Most of the stories I write have a tragic story, something that hurts my heart or can make me cry, since I enjoy that, but I can write a good slice of life story. I also prefer to write stories where I can put myself in it in some way, even if it isn’t the main character, since I already do that with the manga or comics I read.

• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?

I think they’re all equally important, since they all affect each other. I rely on the past quite a bit, I reminisce in nostalgia and refer back to memories a lot, especially now that I’m 18 and graduated. I like the feeling of nostalgia and how bittersweet I feel when I think about the past, since I can never reach it again. When it comes to the future, it seems huge to me. I have some sort of plan that works out for me so I don’t tend to think about the future in a terrified manner. To me, anything could happen, so that’s why I prepare now and jump into the things that make me feel scared so I don’t have to be anticipating it. By that, I mean, jumping into something that I’m nervous about so I don’t prolong my feelings of anxiety. Certain things about the future make me really excited though, like finding love and having all the things I want, like my dream car. Overall, I treat all three with a sort of “positive realist” approach, I know about what will probably happen but I’ll do my best to work with what I have.

• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?

Typically, I’ll do anything I can to help someone. I like to feel helpful, and if someone asks for my help, I feel important and reliable. If I decide to help them, it’s because I genuinely do want to help. I won’t help if my heart isn’t in it, which isn’t often.

• Do you need logical consistency in your life?

Yes, logical consistency is important to me. I apply it to many aspects of my life. If this means this, then it has to mean this somewhere else. I do think truth and logic changes though, I prefer not to think in black-and-white since to me, almost everything has nuance. That nuance is important to me, which is logical to me.

• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?

Pretty damn important. It irks me when people have no sense of urgency when they work. I like to know what to do, how to do it, so I know that I can work stress-free and at an appropriate pace.

• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?

If I feel someone is a more emotional or immature person than me, I feel a sort of control over them. I feel more grown and so I make the decisions since they seem too irresponsible to do so and I feel as though they may mess something up. I did that unconsciously for awhile until I realized I was doing it not that long ago.

• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?

My hobbies are writing, reading, gaming. I also enjoy watching clouds, animals, people. I love to observe nature and people. I feel outside of everything, like no one can bother me. I hate to feel invisible though, so I have to remind myself that I’m still there. When it comes to writing and reading, I feel like I can transport myself to a world where I’m important, people pay attention to me, and I don’t have to work hard to feel loved and wanted. Gaming also does that for me too!

• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?

I’m unsure what my learning style is, but I need to physically be there with the person teaching me. I struggled back in 2020 when we had to do zoom calls, I hated online classes. It’s much easier to look the teacher in the eyes, be there with them physically, and not feel awkward doing the work. Plus, my environment at home was distracting. I prefer classes involving memory, logic, and creativity, since my memory is great and I’m good with logic and creativity. My favorite subject is history.

• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?

I’ve actually been told I’m great at doing that, I improvise pretty well and can come up with about any excuse for anything I get in trouble for. I prefer not to get caught though. When it comes to ACTUAL work, I plan well and I usually do enough research to have alternatives to the side anyway.

• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?

My aspirations in life are to find love, be happy with my career, have a nice car and a nice place to live, and to feel comfortable around the people I associate with. I want good friends and a good relationship with my family. They’re pretty basic, but I’m an ordinary person after all.

• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?

My fears are being judged or made fun of, losing myself, and being reliant on another human being. When it comes to judgment, I hardly ever tell people about my interests since I consider some of them embarrassing and only say it when I feel safe to do so. I play it off that I don’t care about this judgment, but I really do care. When it comes to losing myself, I mean, losing my personality and my interests. The last one means if I ever was disabled, I would hate to have to completely rely on another human being for anything, especially for food or cleaning myself.

• What do the "highs" in your life look like?

Highs in my life look like pushing myself out there, talking to people, trying new things. I’ve been doing that more lately and it makes me feel good. Even though I’m exhausted, it feels good to know I've been doing things that used to keep me from improving myself.

• What do the "lows" in your life look like?

Lows in my life look like self-isolation, avoiding my loved ones, not eating like I usually do. A pretty unhealthy past behavior of mine was I would isolate myself in my room and I wouldn’t eat.

• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?

I’m attached to both reality and my daydreams. Reality to me is my life, it’s controllable, real and not just what I want to see. Daydreams allow me to think about what I want to see, about what I want in reality that I currently don’t have. In my daydreams, there’s no constraints that tie me down in reality. I can be whoever I want in my daydreams without my own fears and feeling obligated to everyone in reality. In reality, I pay attention to pretty much everything, I am detail-oriented and I want to know about everything around me. I used to work in fast food as a cashier, and I hated it. Mainly because we had to wear this headset that connects to the drive through. We had to listen to THAT, and our crew mates. It was overwhelming, and I felt like I couldn’t hear and not having access to that sense I rely on so much overwhelmed me. In daydreams, there’s many details, and most times it’s because of details I observed in reality that I like. Sometimes I’m not in control of my dreams though, and it’s scary.

• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?

I would probably wait thinking I would eventually be let out, but then I’d start going crazy. I’ll probably go through all life’s big questions in the span of an hour and everything that’s happened in my life. Then I’d go crazy. I’m not really sure about this question though...

• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?

I procrastinate A LOT. I put a lot of thinking into my decisions, and I do end up regretting my decision afterwards because sometimes I think the other thing might have been better. I feel bad about my decision for a few hours then forget about it because it ended up being an alright decision.

• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?

It takes me quite a bit to process my emotions. Sometimes I don’t know how I feel until later when I’m alone. Being alone helps me mull over my own emotions rather than the influence of others around me. Emotions are important to me, I think they should be to everyone, though it’s definitely as important to have control over them.

• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?

Not really. Usually I’ll feel comfortable enough to disagree, and have a productive conversation about it. I don’t really agree, I’ll just stay silent and let them keep talking because I want it to be over with.

• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?

If I find the rules to be stupid, yes. I think breaking rules are necessary for changes to happen. I have rules I disagree with and I won’t follow them, but I’ll do my damn best to make sure I don’t get caught. I think authority should definitely be challenged, that’s how we push for better leadership and changes. Challenging authority doesn’t always have to be because you want better leaders, I think it can be done to push your leaders to be better or acknowledge issues you want acknowledged. And I don’t think authority automatically knows better. I always do my research on my authority figures to form an opinion on if I can trust them with my loyalty or not.