Oppisites

I have a weird habit for falling for people completely opposite from me. People who are bright, funny, soft, sensitive, kind, ethereal. I know it can never be. I can never have someone like that. they may compliment me, try to befriend me, but it isn't genuine. its just their personality. nothing personal, nothing deep, nothing like how I feel for them. I am destined to be alone forever, surrounded by my feelings and desire for someone to obsess over. But I know i cant express my feelings for those people like how I'd like. I'm a stalker, jealous, narcissistic, sadistic. they dont deserve to be put with someone like me. I guess it was just never meant for opposites to attract.