why is it such taboo for a women to live alone?

I’m truly at the point where I feel it’s time for me to move out as a girl even tho I know my entire family will hate me for it. There’s nothing more I desire than to WANT to stay home with my family, to feel safe, to feel supported, to feel loved, to feel accepted, to just be content with going home. But I’m constantly anxious and my nervous system is a mess living here. I hate that moving out would cause such huge issues and I wish I could still be supported and it wouldn’t feel like such a drastic ultimatum where I have to choose. I’m genuinely depressed everytime I have to go out from school.

Muslim parents ( in my culture) hate the idea of their daughters moving out alone yet so many examples of girls despising going home and being depressed at home. If u dont want ur daughter to ever leave home, then why don’t u make home a safe space? It doesn’t make sense to me. The issue isn’t only the lack of all I said, it’s also just the anger hostility yelling and constant talk down. Still not being allowed to go out with friends more than once a month and even calling/texting friends is a problem my whole life. Then make snarky comments that I’m not as social as they want me to be. It doesn’t make any sense. It makes me just wanna leave and not care what happens after.

I also hate when there’s talk ab girls “running with a man” and absolutely ruin her. (When men don’t get social consequences atleast here they dont). Bc girls are not doing it for pleasure of being with a man as a man would, moreso the freedom that will come after and feeling safe for the first time. it’s never about the man, it was neverrr ab that, it’s ab the feeling of freedom to girls who arent able to move out alone due to things such as probably not being allowed to work. So even tho those girls are wrong i have empathy for them. They’re 99% in abusive homes.

I’m just so sad I have to feel like I have to make this decision. I hate how much I care about ppl who don’t care about my feelings at all.