I finally got a job near home!

Hi guys, you guys might know me judging from the way I write but I was the guy who was struggling with eating disorder and a schizophrenic mom. But I've been having social anxiety and insomnia from the fear of falling homeless. All my family has been fed up with me. But good news tho, I got hired yesterday after a flawless interview with the founding couple of a catering company nearby my apartment area; just straight ahead and a couple of right turns. This is a miracle job for me since I literally won't have to take the bus anymore and wait for it to arrive or go and no more ride fare, no more dying to get home from sore legs. I got lucky, real lucky. I thank the earth and the sun and people's kindness.

I think I would go homeless if I didn't find work since there's vagrancy laws in my country. I have considered going skydiving from a tall ass bridge iykyk but clearly I can never do it.

CTB is a sacred thing. I've been tossing it like it's nothing. No, only the very brave and kind and virtuous can do it and I'm none of those. Judas did it and he was something. I've hurt many people so I just want to focus on work, no more cigarettes, beer or screwing around.

I want to eat pork chops, popcorn chicken and cook delicious food at home. Never hunger again.

Yeah, I'm officially no longer a hikineet. I'm a normie who's going to take any abuse at work and turn the other cheek. I can't nor anyone can change the system; police, judiciary council and the puppeteers hold the strings. I'm just going to cope with jesus, idolatry, ancestor worship and food and sightseeing sometimes. Maybe start a business or rent this place once mom dies.

I don't love her but I'm going to fake it till I do. Humans are animals who's ideals like unconditional love is all nonsense. Now she treats me more kindly after I got the offer, lol. I'm not badmouthing her but I think money is king and financial independence is important. I can't think of anything else but work and my performance and little hobbies.

For hikis who have aspd traits like me: just focus on work and the present. turn the other cheek. give up on ctb and don't toss it around like it's easy; it's sacred and for few special people.

Yeah, I'm not encouraging ctb. Just tired of thinking "I can always end this", nope, not for me. Work till collapse or retire while part-time it is what it is. Body wants to live. Dignity is gone but stomach still hungry. Hunger strikers deserve veneration fr.