I lowkey think I became a degenerate.

I dont feel like myself/don't think like I used to (though now come to think of it it was time ticking bomb, I was never in right mind I suppose, just cooing massively), I can't focus on anything as my mind is racing constantly from one worry based on reality to other, I don't know how to socially exist, lately responding/speaking cohesively have been massive issues, and I can't get help.

Will I lose my mind/gain permanent damage, or is there recovery?