I want a decent laptop for my college

Hello everyone I'm sorry if I seem very greedy to you but I want genuine help from all and everyone of you. I'm currently in college studying finance and preparing for government exams. I want a decent laptop for my studies. My concern is genuine and I have tried a lot but couldn't get any help from anyone. My mother is a single mother and she can't afford me to buy a laptop at this point of time and she said that you'll get things when they are meant to in life. I have already struggled enough for the past 3 years and I have got anything out of it.

I cleared a national level exam and was about to get into the best law school in India, but fees were too expensive and I couldn't leave my mom as my dad expired just after 50 days of my exam. So I dropped the idea of studying law. Currently studying BBA finance and preparing again for government competitive exams just to get through a decent job. But I just want a decent laptop as I always wanted once since 11th class and now I'm going to enter in my 2nd year.

Please help me even if you help me with a small amount of contribution I'll surely pay it back to everyone when I'll earn for sure or even if I'm not able to pay it back. I'll surely help someone needy in help as like I'm today.

I'm sorry if it sounds like begging. I know but I'm not even able to find a job or something. I'm really good at writing and reading and also research based work (if the recruiter makes me understand once what he wants from me I'll surely give them that at my best output).

Hope I get some help thank you so much 🙏.