24 [M4F] trying so hard to sleep but too hard to do so, what do I do?? Religious/conflicted

I work a super high stress job and I’ve had a lot of loss recently in my personal life. My body and mind are craving some sort of relief and distraction so naturally I’m very horny. But I try my best not to do anything about it because I feel bad when I do.

It’s been a few days since I gave in so my body is going crazy… i keep waking up because of how hard it is. I’m exhausted and need rest but I’m too horny to go back to bed. What should I do?? I don’t like looking at porn because o feel like it’s so addictive and distorts you view of women. But visuals help so much when I give in. I don’t even want to give in but it starting to hurt from throbbing. Please give me your advice