Feeling anxious and low on self esteem ..... Feels nobody stays forever.

Life lately feels like whatever u do , whatever efforts u put no one gonna stay with u forever, ultimately they gonna find a reason to leave and make it a issue.

It's making me anxious and feels like nobody gonna understand and all the convos m having with people feels so fake.

It feels like missing a real connection and feel like out of touch from the real world.

And its making it more hard to focus on studies. I am in my mind twenties and feel like m behind every one , every one is successful in life having fun and here I am just lying in my room all the time.

Somedays I feel motivated I try to change my condition but it's like I am loosing my mind.

Even somedays m being suic*dal and try to cope up , I feel like liability on my family never achieved something.

I don't know how to keep myself up and change my condition.

I feel like I need someone real to talk , I feel like sharing and feel like really need to change the things for good.

But I don't know how to do it.