Nervous about VOLO pickleball

I’m pretty new to pickleball, and I know I’m not great. Never grew up playing racquet sports, but I can hit the ball back. I signed up for a VOLO recreational league thinking it would be pretty beginner friendly and a way to improve. It’s also a rec league so who cares. Right?? But, they combined the recreational league with the competitive league which is making me nervous.

I went to a pretty athletic school and had my fair share of assholes over pickleball. I know the only way to get better is to force myself to go, but I don’t want to be the worst one there and completely embarrass myself. I’m wondering if it’s worth emailing the organizers and trying to drop out.

Has anyone had any experience with this? I am in Boston by the way.