what am i?

for starters im a guy, i’m also a teen so i’m still exploring myself, but i’m so confused and feel kind of left out of spaces because i have no idea what i am and there are no labels that sound like me, i always say i’m gay, because i do know i have attraction to men, and would see myself marrying a guy, but with girls it’s different, i could see myself dating a girl but not spending my whole life with one, and it makes me feel so weird, people say it’s just bi with a preference but i don’t think that’s what it is