Has this happened to anyone?

When I was younger, (from ages 12-14) | had a lot of sexual feelings towards guys, something that completely gradually vanished in my late adolescence and current adulthood (I'm 22). I remember fantasising a lot about gay sex, sometimes more so than straight sex, particularly about bottoming and I remember being very sexually aroused thinking of it. I even bought a dildo and masturbated with it. I had semi-"sexual" experiences with guys, I remember being 12 and "experimenting" with a friend of mine in the school locker room, in two separate occasions. He didn't seem to be into it so we stopped.

By the end of the 7th grade, we had a school trip to an amusement camp and had to sleep in bunk beds. I remember a guy from my class being in his bunk bed and his Playstation portable (psp) had kind of broken down, I go up there to see it and I fix it simply. Then he started acting "suspicious", saying stuff like "if you were a girl l'd kiss you" then "I'll kiss you anyway", we didn't kiss but I was clearly still there, so. At some point he took his penis out and asked me to suck it (we were alone in the room, I don't think I mentioned this, but I was scared of someone coming in too, and seeing, which at some point, happened, but they didn't see anything, anyway), I think I did, briefly but it made me feel very guilty and confused.

This is something l've never told anyone. It pretty much ends here. There were some other instances in that school trip where that guy really wanted me to suck him off, I remember he was in the showers and whispered and called me to come to him, I did not go.
I sincerely think these feelings faded for me and I think I was like this because of young exposure to
pornography. But I feel I had to share this because, even then, I remember searching for stories like these on the Internet but none were relatable to my particular experience, because the guys who shared them, eventually found out they were gay or bisexual.

This is something l've never told anyone. It pretty much ends here. There were some other instances in that school trip where that guy really wanted me to suck him off, I remember he was in the showers and whispered and called me to come to him, I did not go.
I sincerely think these feelings faded for me and I think I was like this because of young exposure to
pornography. But I feel I had to share this because, even then, I remember searching for stories like these on the Internet but none were relatable to my particular experience, because the guys who shared them, eventually found out they were gay or bisexual.

At 16, I had my first girlfriend and loved her dearly and never thought again of possibly being gay or bisexual, I felt, completely satisfied. Afterwards I had sex with multiple women and never thought, during, before or after of doing it with a man.
Thanks for reading, and tell me your sincere opinions and personal experiences, I really want to know your stories

One clear note: these feelings, and experiences I had with men were strictly sexual, on my part.

Posted Jun 27, 2026, 10:26 AM UTC

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