Im trying something new and i wanted to share it with you strangers.

Hi 👋🏻 so im selene and ive never cleared any entrance exam in my life. And i know why that is. Its because i give up. I believe im gonna fail because im not smart and life delt me with shitty cards from the beginning so i give up because i know so many people out there are much better than where i am. I stop studying and when the exam comes i indeed fail like i predicted and i tell myself "see you always fail".

However this time im trying something different. I started preparing for banking exams about 5-6 months ago. I wasted time here and there i was lost and took me a while to understand how and where to study from. But this time im not giving up. I know SBI PO is quite near. But i also know there are many exams after that as well. Im a 25 year old unemployed woman. Im the biggest burden on my family and i want to change that. So im not giving up this time. My reasoning syllabus is finished so is english im really good at english like without studying i get 1 or 2 questions wrong thats it.

The problem is quants im doing ratio and proportion right now im studying from yes officer aasish arora sir. Plan is to finish quants before the end of july.

Im currently scoring 50/100

I wanted to share it because i still have days where my brain is so loud and its screaming at me that im going to fail so theres no point in even trying to study and mostly i ignore it but sometimes its hard to ignore. But im not going to give up no matter what. I genuinely belive i will clear at least one exam this year.

I would appreciate any advice or help or accountability you guys can provide.

Thanks for reading 🙏🏻💕 if you are reading this and you resonate with what ive written please dont give up. Our brain is our biggest enemy. Fight and keep going.