i hate my skin

it’s not my fault i’m this color, if i could change it i literally would in a heartbeat. i feel like everyone is making fun of everyday because of my skintone, when i go out in public and they see my dad not with us it’s so embarrassing because i know atleast someone is thinking poorly. i wish my mom never got with my dad, i hate it and will never be comfortable in my own skin. i look in the mirror and can’t look at myself for too long without having suicidal thoughts. fuck my life