I’m not sure lowkey but I’m still coming out

I’ve struggled with my sexuality for a long time, but I’ve always kind of thought I was gay and just dated men cuz I felt like I was disgusting and unlovable anyway.

But then I just started harboring so much hatred towards men and I don’t want to be angry and hateful anymore.

I’m still lowk confused but women don’t make me nauseous with anxiety and fear the way men do. Women just exist, and it’s like a quiet yearning in the back of my head. The type that doesn’t make me wanna hurt myself 😂

I think I should follow that and stop living in my misery.