I don't want to talk about it much mostly cause I can't remember much about it

So I can't remember everything about it but I'll say the still I can remember so when I was like 8 I think I had been raped in the bathroom at a pretty big mall and I guess I couldn't comprehend it at the time but It still left a mark and then when I was a bit older at 12 I was sexually harassed in school getting touched by an older student and nobody did anything to help so around then I was starting to remember my past incident and over years I've been hating myself (mostly appearance) and doing SH I have trust issues and I've had a past attempt to take my life and failed even if nobody cares I feel like I should post this and not keep it hidden