I kinda wish that you could be there tonight.

I don’t even know why I feel this way.
But I kinda hope you’ll be there tonight.

Even tho last time I saw you I made an embarrassment out of myself at that one of these events.

You were funny, and kind, and easy to talk to.
You spoke to me like you actually wanted me to understand what you were saying.
Not expecting that I should speak a ‘language’ that I was never taught.

But you never spoke down.

You felt like a safe person, a kind person, a good human being.

I know you’re socially awkward and you don’t go out enough.
As much as I’ve heard that they’ve tried to get you to.

I hope I made you feel included last time.
It was nice having someone around who was part of the “group.” But also wasn’t as close to every person there besides me.

I hope I didn’t give off too intense of vibes around the end.
But you seemed awkward, unsure of how to interact with everyone else.
So for a minute while no one was looking I put my attention on you.
Sometimes I worry I’m too much tryna get people out of there comfort zones.

But it seemed to work.
You seemed to relax.
I hope it worked.

I’m sorry I didn’t remember the fact that we met before.
But we didn’t really interact then if i remember correctly.
Maybe you said hi when me and the girls decided to dip.

But I won’t apologize for calling out those shoes.
Wasn’t expecting them.
No hate tho.
Anyways I kinda want you to be there tonight.

Not in a weird way. You’re just really cool.