I just realized I’m okay with bread knives again

TW: self harm, suicide, abuse.

My ex used to threaten to off himself pretty much every day. He tried a few times, especially when I didn’t want to have sex or I was mad at him for cheating.

One time he slit his wrist with my bread knife to punish me, and I had to call an ambulance, clean up the blood and deal with him being angry at me for no fucking reason. He was mad that I took care of him and didn’t want to leave the blood…
I couldn’t use or look at bread knives without feeling like I was back there for a few years. I refused to even own one.

BUT! I just realized I’ve used bread knives for about a year without even thinking about it!

It really does get better, even if you don’t realize it or believe it at first <3