Drugs are changing my personality and not for the better... is it doing it to you too?

I'm always in pain and the doctors have giving me drugs such as Meloxicam and Cyclobenzaprine. But they are making me mean, grumpy, angry. I'm a hair way from coming unglued on people. I often lose my temper. That is not like me at all. But I'm also still in pain.

Are drugs making me worse? Because I"m not getting any better.

I've tried herbs, gummies, CBD ( made me see demons), I tried HEMP, (also saw demons on that too.) Lions Maine... Yup saw spirits but not demons again. What in the world is in these drugs?

But the drugs Meloxicam I am starting to think I've become a super jerk. Everything sets me off. I'm always shouting at people who don't understand and can't answer a question. So i'll keep myself away from folks. How are we suppose to get well on drugs that make us mean? I don't want to be mean. But everyone and everything is really pissing me off.

I know other people got it hard too, but dam. It is like the world is going out of it's way to really freaking piss me off.

God, church, folks, customer service reps. Doesn't matter who. My fuse is short and boy it packs a punch. I’m not normally this hostile. Sure I'm in hell. But in the past I could be in hell with pain and managed. What's changed? the duration of pain killers? Unemployment. Zero Income. Seriously, life is shit. But I'm getting to the point that I"m like... Why and when did I become so mean?

I think it is the drugs. But without them I can't sleep. I'm in pain right now. I've taken the drugs it barely touches the pain. What did they do to me?

I didn't have this problem pre-Covid 19! Since the loss of job, loss of my beloved dog, life has gone to hell and now I'm mean.

Are you guys noticing a shift in your personality? Trying drugs and herbs and getting zero relief. I do not recommend HEMP or Gummies to anyone. Even if they make me calm. Then I see demons and that isn't helpful at all. I'm not joking. So... What did they do to me? It doesn't seem normal.

CBD, that was helpful...but seeing spirits....NOT HELPFUL! But I would see them and think. Ummm... why do I see this spirits and stuff? Like another dimension.

I was tested for mental disorders... they call it depression. As for seeing stuff. They say I am not schizophrenic. Are they sure? Of course I don't see or hear demons as long as I don't take HEMP/Gummies/Lions Maine.

But Now I'm mean! As mean as can be. Really hostile and not friendly at all. Now, I'm angry and mean and oh... boy so NASTY.