Miss my kids. Mis myself. Im about to do it...

Im over it. If I wouldn't hurt my twin brother id happily end this as I scream. Death has to be easier. I just want my mind to stop. I want my heart to stop. I dont want to care anymore. I just want a way out. I heard helium gas is a peaceful way of going. I pick up my gas in two days. Funny thing is. Is only one person will care. And his care makes me hesitate. But hes married and kids and has a wife and doesnt need to know his twin brothers bullshit. Im going to miss my twin. But the Bible says I will remember nothing when im dead, I want that. Love you Marc. With everything brother. I tried. I really did. You are the last thing ill think of on purpose. Love you twin.