Struggling with deciding what this would be considered

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Okay so, I (22 F, 21 when this happened) had a male friend in his 30s. (32 or 33, cant remember). He and i had some sexual interaction, but i never gave him a blowjob or anything, just touching and making out. When then agreed on being just friends. Well, I then called him to come get me one night because i had smoked some weed that i think was laced and i was really fucked up and i needed someone i felt like i could trust, but i also wasnt entirely against hooking up. I knew it might happen since i was calling him to come get me, but after he picked me up i started to get more and more out of it and high. I ended up drinking as well to try and level it out some because i was getting very anxious. That didnt work and I was super messed up.. like sobbing, barely able to walk.. couldnt even watch a movie. now, i dont remember the rest of the night really, so i assume i agreed to this, but the next thing i remember i was giving him head. it didnt really bother me too bad because I wasnt sure if i had started it or what happened. Months later, i asked him if he wanted to come with me and a friend to some bars and clubs. He said yes and rented all of us an airbnb. he had no interest in me until i was wasted. then he started touching me whenever my friend would look away and I couldnt really stop him because i was so out of it but i remember i didnt really mind. However later in the night I got mad at him for something and i wanted to go to sleep. He knew i was mad at him. At this point I was so drunk i was going in and out of consciousness. my friend (a female) had to help me walk, stand, change and use the bathroom. She put two layers of pants and a skirt on me because she wouldnt let me fall asleep without layers on in case he tried something. I was insisting on sleeping in the bed because i did not want to sleep on the floor. He slept in the bed too and she kept coming in to check on me because she was worried. I didnt realize what she was doing at the time but she told me the next day. my memory from everything is cloudy and comes in bits and pieces. I remember him kissing me, i just wanted to cuddle and i kept saying i was tired. then I remember being conscious because he was putting something (im assuming his penis) into my mouth and i was confused and looked away but then it blacks out again. i remember my friend coming in and him quickly pretending to be asleep. then the next thing i remember he had his penis in my mouth and i was confused so i was trying to figure out what was going on and he said shhh just lay there just lay there” and from there i only remember bits and pieces of me saying i was sleepy and him saying to go to sleep but he was still doing stuff to me. Heres the thing.. with my current partner and past partners i actually kind of am into this roleplay sexually, except this is not something i ever discussed with him. Because of that I feel really gross inside about it, but i feel like he doesnt know he did anything wrong because hes being totally normal. I have been told by men that i give off the vibe i would be into that kind of thing so then i feel like i shouldnt have put myself in that situation to begin with and i should’ve probably assumed this would happen. also i have hooked up with him before and i dont know if i explicitly said no. i feel like im being overdramatic that it bothers me, but i cant seem to stop thinking about it and it happened months ago.