Limp

I love looking at porn and as soon as I stop stroking my dick goes limp. I'm so fucking up even porn doesn't get me hard only rubbing my tiny virgin cock. I need to start prone masturbating again and make this permanent. I think when I do I am just going to watch porn not even masturbate deny myself pleasure as a punishment and beat my blue balls. I just want to be a limped blue ball addicted mess who will never feel release.