Idk what to do

So i met a girl 4 5 months ago we had great xomunication fast forwarx we are together and all we had first kiss it has been 5 to 6 days and not gonna lie after firts kiss he da 7 more not a makeout but a kiss and this girl is close friends with one of my homeboy and she texted him that she felt not good not about the person but the thougts of her kissing an allot so i think now thats my faulth because i was pushy and way too lustful because i cant even get mt self to stay normal im just a weirdo at this point and ik in future if she brwaks up with me she will not have problem with anyone because its maybe not about the thing its about the person and looks idk if im overthinking or what but i gues thats how it is she admited its not about person but idk at this point i love sooo soo much tho i csnt even explaine how to tell