Long standing issues with Intimacy

Beginning of the relationship I thought I had found my person, couldn't keep my hands off of them, and everything was great (until it wasn't).

Later into the relationship I found myself and my body rejecting them intimately, like I was attracted to them of course, and etc. etc., but my body just rejected them like crazy and I didn't know what was going on. Like sex felt like a chore, or just doing it to keep them off of my back. Unsure.

Now post-breakup and final discard, my libido is coming back in full force. I don't know if it was the prolonged mistreatment, abuse, or what have you. I have never experienced something like this before in my life.

I have always had a high sex drive in relationships, and in general, but having my self esteem and everything absolutely wrecked has really fucked up my system.

Anyone else have their libido absolutely destroyed throughout the years?