Anyone here admitted a hidden gambling addiction and debt to their partner? How did it go?

Problem/Goal: Anyone here admitted a hidden gambling addiction and debt to their partner? How did it go?

Context:
I’m not looking for sympathy. I know I made my own choices, and I take full responsibility for them. I’m just hoping to hear from people who have actually been in a similar situation.

I’ve been struggling with an online gambling addiction for years. It started with small bets, then slowly got worse without me even realizing it. I kept thinking I could stop or win back what I had lost, but instead I ended up burying myself in debt.

I maxed out my credit cards through cash advances and eventually turned to online lending apps. At one point, I was borrowing money just to pay another lender. It’s been a vicious cycle.

The hardest part is that nobody knows. I’ve carried this alone for years.

My partner has no idea how bad it has gotten. I’ve lied about how much I’ve lost, especially when we’d go to the casino together. I would always tell a smaller amount because I was ashamed.
I’ve tried to quit so many times. I’d stop for weeks, even months, then relapse. Every relapse became worse than the last. I honestly think I’ve reached the point where I can’t beat this alone anymore.
I’m planning to tell my partner everything very soon. I’ve already written a letter because I don’t think I’ll be able to speak without breaking down.

I’m terrified.

Not because I think I deserve to avoid the consequences. I know I don’t.

I’m terrified of losing the person I love most. I’m terrified of seeing the disappointment in their eyes. I’m terrified that they’ll never trust me again.

For those who have been through this…

How did your confession go?
Did your partner stay or leave?
Was there anything you wish you had said differently?
What helped rebuild trust, if it was rebuilt at all?
If you were the partner, what made you decide to stay or walk away?

I’m not asking how to hide this or get away with it. I’m done hiding.
I know I deserve whatever happens after I tell the truth. I just want to hear from people who’ve lived through this, because right now I feel completely alone.

Thank you for reading.

I hope you get compassionate and honest responses.

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