Will it be my turn?

Everyone is just so disappointing.. I have so much to give. To the point where it fills me up and suffocates me if I don’t let it out somehow. Yet, I’m meeting people with 0 emotional intelligence and such low levels of maturity. It’s so dangerous for me to get obsessed and attached to people because they’re not real. No one’s genuine anymore.. I want to put myself out there but everytime I do, I’m met with people who think they’re obsessive but really just want someone to be obsessed with them. They just want to be fawned over. It’s perverse and evil. I’m an empathetic person and that usually leads me into shitty situations of people just using me. The things I yearn for, people just want to use it for their benefit. I don’t want to give up but everyday as I get older and experience more and more heartbreak and disappointment. I just feel like I’d rather die than deal with people who don’t understand how to be a good person/partner.