Drank my cousin's pee and it made me fall in love

So the story started a few months ago. I (32M) and my cousin (22F) had just met after years of not communicating, our families never were close so we barely ever spoke or met often but recently, she invited me for her big day, her wedding. I never really had any feelings for her, she was just a person in my family, and I was glad for her to have found the right person in her life. Her husband is the CEO of a small company that he founded, he's very sweet and caring with her. One day, as both our families stayed at nearby houses to assist the wedding in a week or so, she invited me home, to pass all the years we had missed being together. I didn't refuse because I felt pretty lonely, I don't talk much to my family. That night, we were all alone in her house, her husband was too busy with work due or a sudden meeting, I can't remember, and we sat together on the couch, played a movie and spoke. We didn't have much in common but the conversation was amazing until she told me that she needed to go to the toilet, I let her. I never felt such a bond with a woman before, and I know that cousin related things aren't well viewed but she's a far related cousin with whom I never grew up around, and age differences didn't bother her at all. When she came back, I went to the toilet after her, I couldn't control my emotions for her, that's until I saw that she didn't flush, and I don't understand to this day why I did this but, I reached out with my two hands into the toilet and held her liquid in my palm before I drank it, the worst thing is that I liked it, and it made me realise how I love her and don't want her to marry her husband next week. After that I left her house with 0 explanations and since then she's been trying to reach out. Her wedding is in two days.

Am I weird for falling in love with her through a weird kink I discovered?