Am I the only person who gets completely emotionally wrecked by the World Cup ending?

I know this is probably going to sound ridiculous to some people, but I’m genuinely struggling with my home country being eliminated from the World Cup, and I’m trying to figure out if anyone else experiences this the way I do.

I want to start off by saying I didn’t expect my country to win the World Cup and I didn’t expect us to get any further than the Round of 16 (although of course one can hope). And I already knew I was going to feel this way when it over no matter at what stage it happened.

I moved from my home country to the U.S. 7 years ago and as a parent and now full time caregiver to my disabled child I have been struggling with loneliness and isolation for the past 5 years.

For me, this is not just about losing a game. The World Cup has always been a huge part of my life and my family traditions. I grew up getting excited about it, watching it with family (always made it a big neighborhood event), and associating it with a feeling of home, belonging, and happiness. This year, I went all out with jerseys, specialty snacks and drinks, fan gear, and really tried to make it into something special for myself and my family because I was longing for that feeling I was missing.

Now that it’s over, I don’t just feel disappointed. I feel empty, almost like I’m grieving something. It’s like I lost one of the few things I was genuinely excited about and looking forward to. I keep thinking about it, I don’t know what to do with myself now that it’s over, and I feel embarrassed by how much it’s affecting me.
Does anyone else experience sports, the World Cup, or other big events this way? Not because of the game itself, but because it feels tied to family, identity, nostalgia, and the feeling of having something special to share and look forward to? I’m honestly just trying to feel less alone in this.

I would almost describe the feeling as being homesick. Like I feel like I just want to go home, but that home doesn’t exist anymore.

I know this is going to pass (I also get post concert depression etc) and I’ll probably feel stupid for posting this by tomorrow or at least in a few days.

And please, if you can’t relate don’t be mean. I already feel stupid and crazy for feeling this way but I’m trying to find an outlet.