SaltburnT

I am weak today, living in my sadness

I prepared a list, knowing this might happen

When I'm weak, I've made a list of reminders

This list consists of the things I was blind to

This one never fails me, to make me feel gross

I use it to help me when I miss you the most

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After months of devaluation I was put through

You had to go and make that disgusting joke didn't you?

Yes, we've all heard it before...

So much you'd think it'd be ignored

But even after the months we fought and argued about

You said again 'jokingly' loving his dick in your mouth

In front of me and his wife

Never ever in my life

Have I been so disrespected

Or felt completely rejected

And yet still I stayed longer than I should've

Even though you were just, "misunderstood," huh?

I have more reminders but this one's for me

Just how much I was treated so horribly

Where is the lie? Even they can't deny

But you were just always such a "good guy"

The more I think about it, the more I think I'm good

When I said that I love you, I don't know how I could

You have betrayed me in so many ways

That hindsight delayed impaired me for days

Don't worry

I'll never speak of your fetish

That's for my grave

Maybe you'll fuck that too, do you get it?!

Gotta be Quick to be as sick as you are

I bet you would think Quick was the hero by far