On day three of withdrawal and absolutely miserable while on a family vacation.

I’m a dumb fuck. Let’s just start with that. I went to treatment for a month in November and was clean for five months before I relapse then I did a taper way too fast. Was using six bottles of spa a day and jumped down in 8 days to nothing. I thought it wouldn’t be too bad but I’m on day three and I’m craving it so fucking badly. I want to get some Kratom today but they literally just outlawed it in the state on July 1 so the stores had just pulled all of it from their shelves. I know day 3 is the worst and I just have to push through. Feeling like a worthless father.