I don't know how to live like this anymore

He assaulted me when I was 17. It was my first time and I still blame myself. I filed a police report but nothing happened. Now I'm 25 about to turn 26 and I thought I was okay but.

I saw that recently he's turned into an influencer "martyr for la raza." He has thousands of followers, and he talks out of his ass. He has more support than I ever have and I've been "putting in the work" so to speak for years, I've dedicated my life to fundraising and helping others.

I just feel sick. I want to scream and comment on all of his posts about what he did but it's a smaller city and I don't want to be harassed. I just want to live life but he's always there no matter where he goes. I used to do a dumb little DJ gig on the weekends, he was there, I went to a city council meeting he was there, I went to a concert an hour away he was there.

I tried to report him to his job since he works with children and they just brushed me off. I told another group heavily involved in our city and they just sent me a chat gpt response.

All i do is go to work and come home. I don't want to go out because he's there. I just deleted Instagram because he's always on my timeline. I throw up every time I see him. I once lost two pounds because I threw up so much.

I don't have any friends, any hobbies, I have no life. I have enough to move but I support my mom and uncle. I'd be selfish to move.

I just don't know how I'm supposed to live the rest of my life like this. I have no one and nothing.