Feels like my deceased boyfriend is trying to warn me

A LONG time ago a former boyfriend of mine passed away, we were great friends. The first year was okay and then the years that followed I went down hill fast and ended up losing my mind and got in a lot of trouble. Finally got my life back together after getting married and having a baby etc.

I always get this bad feeling when someone is going to die, almost like a ring in my ear. I feel like it’s a spirit bell. In November, someone I went to high school with also loses their boyfriend. I remember it shocking me because the pain truly is imaginable. In January the dreams started, what happens is I become close friends with the surviving boyfriend basically helping him navigate the same path as myself in the dream. A few months went by, never even thought about the guy and had a dream again. Now it’s been happening every month since, and I don’t even think about him or what happened. He’s a doctor and barely on social media. I’m finally at a place of acceptance for my own friend. I feel like a complete idiot too because I never sent the guy a message saying I’m sorry for your loss. Part of it was because I have bad social anxiety, and the other reason is I really try to not think about young people dying. It’s a huge trigger. This is just getting weird, and I almost feel like my deceased friend is trying to send me a message. This guys grief must be extremely strong and sending wavelengths or something. Every time I have one of these dreams I wake up extremely happy but then the headache and dizziness follows. Unfortunately I’ve known quite a few people to die that I passed by in school and knew their family, but the dreams are a new occurrence. I just would feel totally odd asking the guy ‘are you alright?’.

Another interesting thing that’s been happening is my two year old has developed an imaginary friend. He talks to him at the wall near the window. It honestly doesn’t bother me because I grew up in a literal haunted house. I just find the timing interesting because we moved into this place back in March. Normally I would think he was playing but he’s literally looking up at nothing and talking haha. I think it’s sweet.