Sorry the photo quality sucks idk what went wrong 

I don’t even know where to start, but the last year is so has been really difficult. I lost some friends, i wrecked my car, i gained 20 lbs, im broke, i had a really shitty situationship that fucked me over real bad. A lot has happened. 

now I’m in university partway into third year, and realizing I don’t want to be in this degree anymore. I enjoy some of the courses, but I wish I was in a bachelor of science instead, because I realized I enjoy it science classes more. I can’t transfer, the university won’t let me unless I pay 1300 dollars to upgrade some stuff, around 1500 total for application fees, and I’d lose out on 3000 dollars worth of classes because they won’t transfer over. Not to mention, I’d be delaying graduating for at least a year. I do have electives I can take in sciences, so it’s not a total loss, but idk. 

I can’t decide what to do, I don’t know what I want to do post grad anymore, but lately I’ve been leaning into doing ultrasound tech, which is at a whole other institution and doesn’t require a previous degree. So it doesn’t even matter what my degree is in, so is it even worth transferring and shoving nearly 5 grand down the drain, when that could cover the cost of the ultrasound degree? Nothing makes sense, and thinking about it is just making me so overwhelmed. 

This university stuff has been weighing on me so hard, and everything else that’s happened this year has taken such a toll on me. I’m so burned out, I wake up anxious, I can’t sleep, I’ve lost my connection to my faith, I’m just not me anymore. I don’t know what to do. I want to just get a job that I enjoy and start my life already, build my savings, move out, get a new car. I’m just so defeated.

I’m so unbelievably burned out and lost