I wish I was attracted to men

Fucking being femme attracted is the worst. I can’t pass ever and I feel like some sick wolf with an attraction to women. That this attraction makes me super masculine. Forever trapped. I know this feeling is problematic as fuck but whatever.

Why can’t I be attracted to a guy who collars and cuddles me. Someone who tells me what a boy failure I am and force femmes me.

But no. Stupid brain sees booba and lights up.

Life is bullshit unfair.