coming down

i had a hypomanic episode last week and its been a few months since ive had one. i forgot how hard the crash after can be. ive been in downward spiral for the last 24 hours and it feels endless. i cant talk about it with anyone bc they dont fully understand how i can go from feeling like im on top of the world to absolute despair. the emptiness feels astronomical. i feel so alone. my one friend tries so desperately to help but i feel like im bothering her. so i suffer in silence and dont bring anything up anymore. and then i have to go to work in the morning and act like everything is fine when im dying inside. i dont have therapy again until thursday. idk. im tired. thanks to anyone who reads this