Just want it to be over

Finally have my repeat US tomorrow, I know the baby isn’t viable, yet they still made me wait another week. Who knows how long I’ll have to wait for a spot on the surgical schedule. Every ache and pain in my lower abdomen makes me scared that it’s finally happening and everytime it’s nothing. No spotting just lots of very painful cramps. It’s literally torture. I can’t handle seeing it in the toilet. I’m not sleeping. I’m eating anything and everything just to feel better again but all it does is make me feel worse. I just needed a vent.